I have fake ass tits…and I hate them.
(edited note: I have decided against using Feng. I didn’t like how her office is run, am not a fan of holistic medicines, etc. Finding a surgeon is a journey. find who YOU are most comfortable with. I am going to Dr Mussat in Chicago for a consult. I want more one on one and have someone touch and poke at these bad boys before making a commitment,. )
The decision has been made. Crystal Hefner suggested her Dr to me in 2016 and I have had it filed since. I kept putting this off, but I can no longer do it. It will cost out the ass, I am sure, but I MUST get these toxic bags OUT of my body! They hurt, I never should have got them and I will continuously warn all women against them. Get a lift. Inject your OWN fat…do not put a foreign sack of toxins in your body! I was young and weak. I convinced myself I was a monster. I let outside forces greatly affect how I felt about myself. I had a SLIGHT size difference (who doesn’t??) and was with someone that pointed it out nonstop and would joke about it. I convinced myself I got them for ME…but I lied to myself. I lied to myself morning, noon and night. I got them because I was ashamed of my real breasts. I believed I was not good enough and allowed others to convince me that my very natural slight size difference…was massive. I stuffed one side of my bra…obsessed in the mirror daily. I would cry over a framed picture my ex kept up of his old fuck buddy (In our house! it was HORRIBLE!) with her huge boobs and her squeezing them together. I brainwashed myself that maybe he would love me and like me as much as the woman he insisted he display in our home. I lost my MIND over what I saw as a HUGE flaw. It wasn’t, as my first Playboy spread and cover can prove. I was fine JUST the way I was. Who gives a shit if one had more mass? In my MIND it was like, 50 cup sizes. It wasn’t. NEVER let ANYONE tell you something is wrong with your body! ESPECIALLY people conditioned to women pumped full of plastic! My first breast job REJECTED. I NEVER recovered. I was in PAIN for 9 months! my left boob DOUBLE boobed. I looked like the chick from total recall!
Joining my left double boob was a SEVERELY capsulated right breast. It sat about 2 to 3 inches higher than me left double boob because it was turning hard as a rock! My tits looked like shit from the moment I unwrapped them. I hid this with shame. I was told to MASSAGE my painful tits to fix them. Yeah. Wanna know what that did? HURT and did nothing! Any interview I did, my pride would NOT permit me to admit this happened to me. I STUPIDLY I allowed my Dr. to convince me I needed a…wait for it…. magical NEW PAIR! Less than a year after my original pricey boob job, I had to get another! This time, they removed a wad of scar tissue from my right breast bigger than a fucking baseball. My boobs look fine now, they do, but I get horrible sharp stabbing pains that feel like I am being shanked with a knife deep into my chest. It gets so bad I drop to my knees even in public. Every breath I take makes it feel like the blade is going deeper and deeper. It’s like that fucking spear head from Hellboy: The Golden Army. Wouldn’t it be awesome if Doug Jones in full “Angel Of Death” garb assisted in my surgery?
I have symptoms of breast implant illness, as well. To top it off? They just linked breast implants with FATAL CANCER. I have been quite vocal about this for a long time. I made a mistake. I have watched other women capsulate, hate their boobs, have to get new ones AND explant. I tried to hide my mistake instead of educating other women not to be as dumb as I was. Not anymore. I promised Matthew after we got married I would seriously look into getting explantation. I have had people suggest I do a documentary. I have been told to go on Botched. I did speak with them, they only wanted to put MORE implants in my body and had no interest in removing mine. That was a HARD PASS from me. Why would I want a THIRD set of fake tits before 40?? A lot of people suggested I start a gofundme, etc etc. I don’t do charity for myself. I made this bad decision…and I want to work for this to happen for me. I will have to Sell More Avon from My Store and build my business more. This would allow me to make extra cash to stash away. However, just recently, I was made aware of a site called Cameo. They allow fans to hire celebs to do personalized videos for them. Well, I have decided I am doing ALL of mine to raise money to get this out of my body. Click Here to Hire Me To DO a Video!
At least I can give something back whilst people help me earn my way to being fake titty free. I know from Crystal Hefner that it will cost about 15k to go to Dr. Feng in Ohio. She is a doctor that REFUSES to do breast implants and has spoken against them to the FDA. She is the tippity top in getting these out of your body, so I wrote them to start the process. I don’t feel bad doing cameos for money. It’s like comic con autograph signing. If I don’t make much there, I will simply continue my hustle to get this shit OUT.
I am really scared, excited, and this feels surreal. I have EXPLANTED Hollywood from my life.I turn down every new job offered to me, every inquiry if I want representation from agents, etc. This will be the FINAL step in reclaiming my LIFE. This will be true freedom from the toxicity I absorbed there. I already freed my mind of it. It is time to release my body from it. The Dr. I chose is said to be the best in the country for this procedure and has a long wait list, but that gives me time to earn this freedom!
I am fine with being a “has been”. I am fine with being a 36 year old married Avon Lady that lives in the mountains with my husband.
I am fine being ME.
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Way to go! I hope you can achieve your mission of getting those things out of your body. I have been contemplating about having implants done and since I have read what you went through, I’ve decided not to. Thanks for being a voice of reasoning for so many. Good luck and I hope you reach your goal.
I applaud you doing this. I battlefield breast cancer just over 1 years ago. It left me with one breast a full C where the other one is a DDDD. As much as I hate it I refused to do any type of implant. And now, with the latest info that came out, I fear for all women who get them. We are so conditioned to believe our breast are everything. Sadly, they are not. And any man who tells you they are, needs a beat down!
So happy you kicked that fuckers ass! ALso happy you love yourself enough to be YOU
It will always be beyond me how people can make a person who’s so captivating, genuine, guileless and fun, feel so bad about themselves.
I wish nothing but the best for you and smooth sailing on the operation and recovery.
Take care.
Thanks for sharing your experiences and being so honest. I could not agree with you more, you do not need implants to be beautiful and/or attractive. I’ve followed you on Twitter for several years now and it’s great to see you in such a good state of mind and place in your life. I have a teenage daughter and I hope and strive for her to feel the same way- that she is beautiful and amazing exactly the way she is. I wish you luck generating the funds needed, when you know you are doing the right thing, it becomes a great motivator! You got this!
You go girl. Im glad you’re speaking out now and hope your pain goes away when the implants do. Love hearing your stories and wish you well!
I have been following you for years Adrianne and I just have to comment for the first time – you are a true inspiration for me. I am so glad you seem to have found yourself and have found a man that is good to you and treats you well. Matthew seems wonderul! You are also inspiring to me with your messages to women about body image and about growing old gracefully in this superficial society 🙂 I am glad you have discovered your path and I wish you the best in your journey to getting rid of your implants. Sounds like the right decision for you! xo
I have watched and admired you for many years, you have helped me to do many things, firstly be the country girl I have opted to be, secondly to learn to say no to unnecessary body modifications and in doing that accept me for me and finally learn to say no! When I have funds I will be definitely organising a cameo and would urge others to do the same. I would buy Avon but no more Avon in Australia. Good luck lovely!
You continue to inspire others to strive for what’s REALLY important in life, to rid ourselves of the evil and toxic in our lives, and to stop making excuses that lead to putting these self-improvement projects on hold. I’m overjoyed that you’re taking this step, and I know I’m not alone in saying thank you for allowing us to help in any small way we can, wether through Cameos or buying Avon. You’ve helped so many people fight their own personal demons, there’s NO DOUBT you’ll cast out this last demon (demons?..lol) and take back your post-Hollywood life! Love you lady!!
Also.. Dr. Feng reminds me of Christopher Walken in Balls of Fury. A masterful villain in a film for the ages. If you haven’t seen it, do so. It might make meeting the “real” Dr. Feng a bit easier/funnier 😉 <3
thanks, amy
Your doing the right thing for your health and life moving forward. The last piece of a toxic past will be gone and you will be free to live a long, healthy, happy life. Which you so deserve. We as Facebook friends will be here to support you when you need it. Sending Love and hugs to you!
Yay Adrianne!!!!
You deserve to love every part of your body!!!
When I watched the marathon of antm cycle 1 on YouTube (since you posted it!) I noticed you talked about how much you loved your boobs!
Good luck, you’ll get it!
Adrianne, I think u r so beautiful and ur honesty adds to ur beauty. Im so sorry for what u were told about urself but I’m super happy u r now trusting in urself. I’m 49 and started talking with couple of Drs about an enlargement but after reading this….nope, not gonna happen. Ill keep loving my A’s. I love ur strength. Keep it up. Prayers r with u. Keep living ur life, ur way.
You are all such brave women. Bless your realness
Do you think the Doctor could give you a discount if you promote it or go public in a television interview. It is such a hot topic right now and it would be great PR for him
I know how long you have wanted this. I’m so happy you’re taking steps to rid yourself of the toxic bags in your body. I support your decision 100%. May your journey be shorter than you believe.
Congratulations , what a big change. I remember you from the show you had with Christopher K. I stopped watching I couldn’t stand him, typical older man who kept looking for the fountain of youth. Happy for you that you got out of the relationship, I’m glad for the work you are doing against all those implants. You are a beautiful woman. Hope you have gotten all of that toxic implants out . Now, you can really be an example to young girls and women overall and not like those disgusting Kadarshian. Good for you I envy you living in the mountains far away from Cal. Congrats to you , enjoy your marriage and God bless !
So much of life is others brainwashing us to believe untrue things about ourselves. Women, especially, are taught to hate their bodies. You are refreshing in your outlook and your message. We are perfect just the way we are. Best of luck to you!
The best part is
“I am fine being ME.”
Way to GO! There’s no better way to live!
I am very happy you found the right life companion to go become what you really want to be… HAPPY!
A big “Yasss Queen!!” to you for explanting! Health is your priority, and I applaud you for it!
Also, I think Doug Jones as anything in the OR theater would be amazing!
Mrs Adrianne, it is perfectly OK for you to be a married Avon Lady living your dream with your love, on a ranch, in the mountains! I sold Avon for years, from before hubs and I dated. To date myself, it was when the first iteration of Anew was put to market.
I’d also like to take a moment to say that I’m not a longtime fan, only becoming one when I’d see you during Matthew’s streaming days.
I got to see your humor and sort of geeked out that someone else had a lot of my sense of humor. and to find out you were anointed Queen by Mr. Lee himself, that just endeared me more.
Ok, enough of my post, since my phone seems to not want to post tonight.
I’ll be pulling for you, sending warm fuzzies and lots of virtual hugs your way when your date comes up. In the meantime, I will still send warm fuzzies and virtual hugs any time you need them.
I was googling taking out implants and came across this, I’ve had mine for 20 years , done 3 fucking times because of same issues like you. Now I’m like what do I do, I’m a huge 34 dad and scared of the loose saggy skin left if I take them out 🤣🤣 i also, like you, was manipulated into thinking I needed them, Years of abuse by an ex husband, meanwhile at the time I was 118 pounds at 5’8” and my small boobs fit my body, he wanted a porn star fantasy cause he was sick now I’m left with this shit ahhhhhhhh you’re beautiful Adrianne I’ll be checking back here more thank you for sharing 💜
explant and lift….then live your life healthy…and celebrate those scars as a symbol of your freedom from societies pressures xoxoxoxo
I never wasnted implants but you did make me realize botox and fillers are posion and bad for you to and I have decided to just grow old as gracefully as possible . Thank you!
Dont do it! Don’t get tempted. I did it when I was 43. I hated them right away and was stressed out until the day they came out 3 years later. That was 10 years ago. I always loved my body but became stupid when a man I was living with would say horrible things about women with small boobs. I can not believe I was so stupid. Luckily the same surgeon who put them in also took them out through the same incision point. No complications. They look great now meaning they look the same. They were always great but I was so stupid. Lesson learned. I am 55 now and I can’t even imagine having them still and knowing that any day something could go wrong and I would have to fix or replace. Who has money for that? They don’t tell you that even if you have no complications that they don’t last forever. Its a freaking merry-go-round and the doctors know that of course. Good luck, Betty. Stick to your guns…
My explant surgeon is amazing and of course, on the recommended list. He doesn’t do implants and fully believes in breast implant illness, recently separated from his colleagues because of this. He is also a micro surgeon and does muscle repair to help shape the natural breast. I’m SO happy with my results. I have seen a lot of terrible reviews about the surgeon you mentioned. For enbloc only and muscle repair nerve block I was able to start my journey of healing for 7.6K. Dr. Stanwix.
My wife went through breast cancer/mastectomy this past year (left side)
She opted to have an implant to replace the breast that was removed, and they
had to “boost up” her existing breast to match the new one.
She loves her new, slightly bigger breasts – but she says that after the pain and
issues, she can’t understand why ANYONE would purposely go through a breast
implant .
Be happy with what you have ladies! Popeye and Bluto were VERY HOT for Olive Oyl!!
Don’t spend that much to go to Dr Fung, when I researched more to get mine out I saw that she has a habit of taking too much breast tissue. I was living in Nashville and found a great Dr that listened to my concerns about Breast Implant Sickness (i.e my autoimmune issues etc). He didn’t push me getting better suited implants which was a hard pass for me. I think I was charged about 3K and my boobs look better than before I had implants IMO. I had this done a few years ago so don’t know if he still charges that much but I did get my implants returned and use them to bean bag toss. His name is Dr Davis https://www.greenhillsplasticsurgery.com/
I’m explanting next week! Can’t wait. Good for you girl!! You are enough ❤️
Tearboobs is the best option to get your best shape for the boobs. This treatment gives you a natural shape.
Lots of equally great surgeons around for less money. I explanted in February, Dr. Bruce Rogers in Katy TX (Houston) he’s a highly trained & experienced microsurgeon, Baylor grad. He saved my life.. 13 year old saline implants causing everything from recurrent sinus infections to neurological symptoms, tremors, seizures (neurotoxicity from shell chemicals and mold.) My enblocs were pristine, many of my symptoms resolved in recovery. Good luck!
I explant with her in 11 days. I am so freaking excited to get my life back. Congratulations to you getting yours back as well!!!
Congratulations for reclaiming you! So many of us ” bought the ticket” on implants. Ladies are now Explanting in droves, many of them sick from them, something most mainstream Dr’s dismiss. Proper explant is imperative! Too many are requiring second surgeries for proper capsule removal, including myself! I did go to Dr Feng for exactly this. She will do it correctly. As a name people recognize, I praise and thank you for speaking out publicly…to raise awareness about this issue.
i agree. I have since shopped for other doctors since I do NOT believe in hollistic medicine and I do not like the way Fengs office is run. I have decided on Mussat in chicago
Good for you!! I hope you can get them out as soon as possible! I just had mine out last week and am recovering. BEST decision I’ve ever made! I too was young and dumb and insecure. You will feel SO MUCH BETTER!!
Thanks for speaking up and being honest! It’s crazy that even you cannot afford to have them removed and here I am needing to get them out immediately to the point a loan, many sacrifices will have to be made so I can get healthy. It’s not reasonable. PS are the worst… hope and pray you can get them out and tell the complete story soon.
i had an emergency myomectomy a few years ago to remove a tumor that ended up not being cancer, thank god. My insurance claimed it was an elective surgery and made me PAY OUT OF POCKET! yep! it was JUST like a nose job, that there tumor making me piss my pants as it grew out of my uterus and into my bladder! Had that not happened, I would have had the money saved for this. our healthcare system is VILE
Came across your blog when I was researching explants. Cool to see you are still writing. I’ve had my implants for 20 years now! Holy shit, I know the stabbing pain you are talking about. I get it too. I am going in for my explant consult next month in Seattle. I can’t wait to get these fuckers out! 😉
Best wishes on your journey…
-Carrie