In regards to my top model blog post “let it go already.” and “why is she bringing this up now?” are things I’ve heard repeated. One, I was being asked if I would make an appearance now that top model is on VH1. I figured explaining old news would enlighten those wondering why i wouldnt, VH1 having been my home for so long…and top model never showing me when showing past winners. Two, I no longer care to pursue entertainment. I quit the business, run my avon store and ran away to the mountains with the love of my life. Getting on the next show, etc. to extend my earning ability is the last thing I’d want for me or us. Hollywood destroys real love. I dont really care what the repercussions are of just tossing my truth out there. It doesnt affect my new life.
Lastly, Imagine you’re in Vegas. You pull the lever and you hit on the slot machine! Everything lights up, a crowd forms and everyone congratulates you…you walk up to the cashier with your receipt to collect your earnings. They never pay you. You’re mad about it. Then, the very people who applauded your win say you should just be grateful for the opportunity they gave you at having people look at your face and feeling that moment of winning…let it go and move on.
Now. Times this by a zillion…and that is what it feels like when you win a big prize on national television and you never get it. Even if you get over it, as I have….it will always be something you bring up in your life … When your buddy complains the contactor never installed the handles they payed for….or that guy sold him a 2k lemon of a car…you get to one up em with “I won one of the biggest television competitions in the world and never got my prize. ”
Admit it, its the Ace in my hilarious card deck. If you cant laugh or look back at the events in your life…what kind of life is it?