I used to sit in toxic relationships and put my all into them in an attempt to “make it work”. I was REALLY GOOD at putting on a “face”. I would slap on a smiling persona and gush about a man who I knew to be a piece of shit because I did not want to publicly admit my defeat. I went to therapy with them, sometimes for YEARS …

For the last few weeks, my shark professional vacuum has NOT been my friend. It has lost all suction. I ordered replacement filters in the hopes that I could breathe new life into it, to no avail. It was time to get a new vacuum. After watching them call names in the Senate, to which Matthew and I added names to the role call…. “Gandalf! Frodo! Theoden! ” and they …

With all the rape/assault conversations going on I thought I’d share something that has always REALLY bothered me. I have a good 50 plus witnesses to a man who reached up my skirt at ORLANDO while I was dressed as Slave Leia for Star Wars celebration V. I was in the hotel entrance chatting with friends before going to bed after a magical disney/star wars will day. Maybe it was …

On our mini honeymoon, my husband told me he would like to help me create some content based on my decorating and whatnot in the home. Seeing how we are SO rural now, this delighted me to no end. All my hard work would be SEEN! Yesterday, I decided it was time.  As Christmas is only in a few months, having the big tree already up would help me …

The Great Khal and I eloped

Every single day, I hear this question. I won’t lie, it is offensive. On my worst days, it will leave me wanting to crawl in a corner to sob. I CANNOT have a baby. Asking me every day when I will have one is harmful. Why people find this intrusive question acceptable to ask couples is beyond me. The worst part about the question is when you inform people you …

  And that is how I left twitter. It is a platform where very popular movements are started by pedophiles ( #metoo ).  It is full of anger, putrid filth and hatred, and that is being kind. Those are the things you find on that platform. Memes making fun of people dying, non stop vomit out of peoples mouths that is racist and cruel. etc. I feel like Twitter has …

I know people will say how judgmental I am, but I have been a firm believer that the people you allow around yourself are a direct reflection of you. It’s a hard pill to swallow when you find yourself friends with someone most consider a scum bag, but these old sayings are around for a reason. “Birds of a Feather” “A chip off the old block” “He that lieth down …

I guess it doesn’t matter how old we get in our lives. If someone says something and it gets back to you, it hurts your feelings. I have had this happen with friends, people I just met, etc. There are times I say hi to people at a comic con, or accommodate a fan while I am eating, basically just go out of my way to be cool to people, …

For many years I marketed myself via my looks. It is how I broke into entertainment. During this time I had a few relationships. I noticed that in those relationships, I was given a lot of freedom. Freedom to pose for Playboy’s celebrity cover/spread…twice, Maxim, etc. Freedom to post pictures of myself modeling, etc online that were very titillating. Funny enough, what I did that was titillating back then is …

The Story of Narcissus and Echo read the above story for a great lesson. Since making the decision to stop marketing myself in a “sexy” way and refocus my life, my eyes have been opened to many things. One, most of us on social media are insufferable narcissists. If it isn’t jamming our political opinions down each others throats, it’s our nonstop need for likes, followers and endless validation. Picture …

Until I deleted Facebook & Twitter from my phone, I didn’t realize how dependent I had become on them. Throughout the day, I find myself glancing at my cellphone. If it’s not a glance, then I have picked it up in an attempt to search for apps that are not there. I have cut my social media use by about 90%. When I do go onto my desktop and check, I get …

Yep, it has only been two days since I deleted Facebook and Twitter from my phone. Let me tell you what I have learned. I never realized JUST how addicted I was to my phone till I no longer had these two apps to access. Throughout each day, I’d brainlessly pick up my phone and LOOK for these apps. Each realization of what I was doing left me in awe …

Social Media used to be a very fun place. In the 90’s I signed up my AOL account and would role play Vampire: The Masquerade. I wish I was kidding, but I have always been a big nerd. Back in 2003, I won America’s Next Top Model. I started a Live Journal. I blogged to friends and fans as I traveled the world. Fast forward to mid and late 00’s. …

  I have noticed a lot of blame going around for toxic relationships. I remember when it was my default for the two I had been in. I blamed them. It was the easiest thing to do. I mean, they were manipulative, snake oil salesmen, charming and most importantly, lying emotionally abusive/violent assholes! Then, my therapist asked me if they were “that bad”. I was shocked. Of course they were! …

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