I have had a lot happen in my life as of late, and I have been deeply questioning my belief system, …
Type and hit ENTER
MY LIFE POST-HOLLYWOOD
I always likened Trent Reznor’s writing to J.R.R. Tolkiens music…the cadence and rhymes. Usually I am a stickler for lines matching and …
September 11, 2020
Posted by adrianne curry
September 11, 2020
Read More →
Seeing the press about the new Cardi B song, I am reminded of when I thought my worth was my looks and …
August 11, 2020
Posted by adrianne curry
August 11, 2020
Read More →
10 or so years ago, I went to Russia to work. I almost died while I was there… (I collapsed in a …
July 25, 2020
Posted by adrianne curry
July 25, 2020
Read More →
I think many of us feel more alone than we ever have in our entire lives. When you log onto your social …
June 21, 2020
Posted by adrianne curry
June 21, 2020
Read More →
After I won top model, I was stuck in a 3 year contract with an agency that no longer wanted me. Top …
May 27, 2020
Posted by adrianne curry
May 27, 2020
Read More →
I have had a lot happen in my life as of late, and I have been deeply questioning my belief system, as are many others. I have been a self proclaimed agnostic. That means, I don’t believe or NOT believe. Years ago, I heard very sound arguments as to why I should NOT believe in God. Ironically, it was my first husband that swayed me. I remember feeling ashamed …
I always likened Trent Reznor’s writing to J.R.R. Tolkiens music…the cadence and rhymes. Usually I am a stickler for lines matching and flow, but this was heavy on my heart and I needed to write it. Enjoy Emptiness No matter how hard I try, no matter my true intent There simply is no way around to really circumvent The issues I am haunted with, feeling so …
Seeing the press about the new Cardi B song, I am reminded of when I thought my worth was my looks and what was between my legs. I marketed myself as a sex symbol. I was rewarded for doing so financially and publicly. The men I attracted to be in a relationship with me during that time were very low quality. If you are titilating people for a living, the …
10 or so years ago, I went to Russia to work. I almost died while I was there… (I collapsed in a hotel and was rushed via ambulance to the ER in St. Petersburg. I had to do treatments daily after being released from the hospital till my lungs were ok to go up in a plane and not drown in my own fluids. I had pneumonia so bad I …
I think many of us feel more alone than we ever have in our entire lives. When you log onto your social media, you see all your friends and family spewing hate, posting NONSTOP outrage posts, CANCEL (insert person here) or trying to condescendingly educate you. No matter what you do, it sometimes feels like you can’t escape the negativity, high horse riding or nonstop virtue signaling. Outrage is the …
After I won top model, I was stuck in a 3 year contract with an agency that no longer wanted me. Top Model dumped them for IMG in season 2 and they were pretty bitter about it. They sent the 3rd runner up who they had signed to Hong Kong because the show was huge there. It was a sensation. I figured they’d send me too considering I won it. …
People made (and make) fun of me for leaving the spotlight and for the career path I am walking now…but I LOVE what I do. It took 3 years and a LOT of work (sometimes I hit 10 hours a day!) but I hit the #1 spot in online sales. It is always changing and I can be usurped, but it is a good feeling. I never thought I could …
Remember the gossip sites BEFORE TMZ? There was one major one. It was a play off of a famous celebrity Heiress. A friend of mine pointed out they wrote about me recently. I didn’t know it was still around. Not being snarky, just figured he did what I did..grew up and got the fuck out. I didn’t read it. He used to post really mean shit about me. Trust …
Obviously, we are all up to date on the madness that is our current world. Before shit hit the fan, I was BEGGING my friend to NOT go on a cruise at the end of February. I was so afraid she would get sick or stranded. I was also advising friends and family to stock up on groceries. No, I did not tell anyone to be a dumb asshole and …
For those ladies out there who embrace their natural selves and no longer stress over your next hair dye session, I have some suggestive grey hair care! My rogue stream is almost 4 months of grow out now. The first thing I noticed is just how dry and unruly it is! I do not like to use hairspray, mouse and I certainly never blow dry or even bother to style …
Great title. Not so great reality. I have to wait 6 months before I will know the true fate of my chest, but I have to consider that I may have lost the very thing I was so insecure about I got surgery. In 2006, I got my first boob job. My body completely rejected it IMMEDIATELY. I went to Dr Frank Ryan and left with one double boob (implant …
This message brought to you by Oxycodone. I have had a very rough 48 hours. Luckily . I HAVE A VERY GOOD Dr. And an equally amazing husband and surgical team. Jan 4th Matthew and I flew out of Kalispell to chicago. We got …
I wanted to write this blog based on the 7 years I have spent researching and trying to understand how I could accomplish this with the best results. I had many setbacks which led to me not having it done yet, one being my Myomectomy in 2017. I didn’t want back to back major surgical procedures. A lot of vulnerable, scared and suffering women come to the internet in search …
Now that we are getting all settled in our cozy Cabin. We needed some new furniture. On our mini honeymoon last year we drove through Rexford and Eureka Montana. We drove by a store called ONE OF A KIND. I had recalled it advertised Amish furniture, so we went back to check it out one day when we were driving all over looking for furniture. It was full of awesome furniture, …
I always liked to think that I held my shit together quite well after winning Top Model. I fancied myself grounded and still “down to earth. I wasn’t. Fame is a disease. You dont have photographers chasing you and fans screaming and crying when they see you and come out normal. Over the years, it slowly corrupted me into someone I wasn’t. I got louder, wilder, and more unruly because …
“You were SO immature on your old shows! You were so wild and crazy! You must still be that way!” This is something I hear a lot. So, I want to ask, what did YOU act like fresh after your 22nd bday? Were you the beacon of maturity? Probably not. I can look back on my life and clearly see what my issues were. I fell in love with the …
Leaving the toxic entertainment industry has been amazing for me. I have been cleansing myself of all the bullshit from that former life. In just 2 weeks, I schedule my explant of my stupid fake boobs for the beginning of 2020. Now, living in the rural mountains of Northwest Montana, I have begun to question why I keep coloring my hair. The answer? I am afraid of what OTHER people …
Let’s chat Botox, fillers and lifts. I am not going to post any pictures, because that is cruel. However, I want to know, do these women just not notice how bad it looks? Is it that desperation to attain youth overrides sane criticism when they look into a mirror? Some of the greatest beauties who ever lived in our time are now looking more and more Alien as the …
This is a post about me and my handsome husband. We both have disgruntled fans who are upset we don’t do what we used to do. He left what he built at Twitch for many years because he had a HUGE opportunity in Voice Overs. It pays more, is really cool and respected and is FAR LESS STRESSFUL! Streaming all day leaves your home feeling like the Truman Show. …
Recently, I had a falling out with someone I wrongly thought felt the same way about me as I felt about them. A shocking ordeal, to be sure. I am VERY selective with those I let into my inner circle and incredibly loyal to them. To find what was essentially a “fly by night” buddy in my deepest inner circle was jarring. Long story short, they left me feeling …
I was raised that you give your own shirt off your back to anyone who asks. It’s a wonderful concept. However, if you are swimming in shark infested waters, it is an open invitation for mental extermination. I am a push over. Walk me through a convention…and the first sales person to ask me to hand them something I don’t want to (last time, my brand new glasses!) to do …
It’s been 25 years since I wore a maxi pad. I HATED them. They felt like a huge bulky diaper. The moment I got over my fear to insert a tampon, I never turned back. Fast Forward to me being a 36 year old woman with a LOT of Uterine issues….I started reading up on Tampons and was a little shocked and saddened at my lack of awareness of what …
This new movement of make believing people shouldn’t judge each other is absurd. People judge everyone and everything in every moment. I see a guy yell at his girl? I judge he is a piece of shit. I see a scrubby looking man acting erratically in an ally? I judge that he may hurt me and steer clear. I see a woman talk shit about someone she claims is her …
We live in a world where we celebrate mutilating ourselves for shallow reasons. We fear aging and shame those who embrace it. Everyone is beginning to look like a carbon copy of each other…same nose…same lips…same tits…same Brazilian booty. If a woman..gasp!…looks her age? She is MADE FUN OF for aging! People should be able to choose what they want to do to their own bodies…but I choose to advocate …
I have fake ass tits…and I hate them. (edited note: I have decided against using Feng. I didn’t like how her office is run, am not a fan of holistic medicines, etc. Finding a surgeon is a journey. find who YOU are most comfortable with. I am going to Dr Mussat in Chicago for a consult. I want more one on one and have someone touch and poke at these …
When news hit of Chris Watts having killed his Wife and children, I thought I knew why. My gut told me she found out he was messing around with men and women and she confronted him. Oddly, it seems that may have been the case. The scariest time of my life was when I started ripping off the layers of deceit my ex sociopath boyfriend was wrapped in. There is …
There is no way around it, to be addicted to anything is to be narcissistic. When I used to smoke, I put those around me at risk, knowingly. I’d play make believe that my cigarette smoke was magical, and wouldn’t find it’s way in the house I was smoking next to, the vents, etc. I put my need to smoke above all else. I excused my young niece knowing I …
Free thought, free will, and general freedom seems like a lost art. You must think EXACTLY as the mob says or off with your head! Being a huge fan of Alan Moore, I can’t help but see how V FOR VENDETTA this country is turning. It seems many call for what can only be considered a Police State. One can only hope a “V” is waiting in the wings…something …
If you are famous, then you deserve to be treated like a circus freak in a 1920s carnivale. 10 cents per gander! I used my Raptor Jesus pic to drive this home…because…well…I fucking loved dressing up as Raptor Jesus. Does there need to BE an actual reason for this photo?? I have seen people treat “famous people” like monkeys at a zoo for YEARS. People then wonder why some …
FRUGAL. That is what I have always been. Two factory working parents and a Grandma who was raised in The Great depression are who raised me. I get more bang for my buck. I could give a flying shit less about NAME BRANDS. Who cares? 12 year olds? That snotty ex best friend you used to go to the mall with? I am always on the search for steals. I …
I used to sit in toxic relationships and put my all into them in an attempt to “make it work”. I was REALLY GOOD at putting on a “face”. I would slap on a smiling persona and gush about a man who I knew to be a piece of shit because I did not want to publicly admit my defeat. I went to therapy with them, sometimes for YEARS …
For the last few weeks, my shark professional vacuum has NOT been my friend. It has lost all suction. I ordered replacement filters in the hopes that I could breathe new life into it, to no avail. It was time to get a new vacuum. After watching them call names in the Senate, to which Matthew and I added names to the role call…. “Gandalf! Frodo! Theoden! ” and they …
With all the rape/assault conversations going on I thought I’d share something that has always REALLY bothered me. I have a good 50 plus witnesses to a man who reached up my skirt at ORLANDO while I was dressed as Slave Leia for Star Wars celebration V. I was in the hotel entrance chatting with friends before going to bed after a magical disney/star wars will day. Maybe it was …
On our mini honeymoon, my husband told me he would like to help me create some content based on my decorating and whatnot in the home. Seeing how we are SO rural now, this delighted me to no end. All my hard work would be SEEN! Yesterday, I decided it was time. As Christmas is only in a few months, having the big tree already up would help me …
The decision to not invite anyone to our wedding was due to a few reasons. The remote locations we wanted to wed in as well as not many people being excited for our wedding. I had moved to IL twice during our relationship when things hit a boiling point. Both times, Matthew adjusted things I never thought possible…and we came back together. The moment one person can’t make the hike …
Every single day, I hear this question. I won’t lie, it is offensive. On my worst days, it will leave me wanting to crawl in a corner to sob. I CANNOT have a baby. Asking me every day when I will have one is harmful. Why people find this intrusive question acceptable to ask couples is beyond me. The worst part about the question is when you inform people you …
I used to try to be as fit as I could. I was constantly told if I was not physical perfection, I would not ever work. I compared myself to other people in entertainment and obsessed over the fact that I worked harder and did more but did not look as good. I was really hard on myself and used to be with people who would constantly look at …
And that is how I left twitter. It is a platform where very popular movements are started by pedophiles ( #metoo ). It is full of anger, putrid filth and hatred, and that is being kind. Those are the things you find on that platform. Memes making fun of people dying, non stop vomit out of peoples mouths that is racist and cruel. etc. I feel like Twitter has …
What. The. Fuck? Seriously, what actually happened to my body? I am COUNTING the number of items I eat and adding them to MyFitnessPal app, like I used to. I am taking in less calories than I need daily in order to lose weight. I am working out hard, drinking water and for the most part, putting all organic and healthy things in my body. I FUCKING GAIN WEIGHT! I …
I know people will say how judgmental I am, but I have been a firm believer that the people you allow around yourself are a direct reflection of you. It’s a hard pill to swallow when you find yourself friends with someone most consider a scum bag, but these old sayings are around for a reason. “Birds of a Feather” “A chip off the old block” “He that lieth down …
I smoked for 20 years. Yep. My first cigarette I stole from my Mother. I watched her smoke my entire life. I remember being fascinated with her cigarettes. They smelled minty when not lit (Salems). I used to snag one out of her pack and just play with it, sniffing it. I had to be about 3rd grade? I think I was in 5th when I finally picked up a …
I guess it doesn’t matter how old we get in our lives. If someone says something and it gets back to you, it hurts your feelings. I have had this happen with friends, people I just met, etc. There are times I say hi to people at a comic con, or accommodate a fan while I am eating, basically just go out of my way to be cool to people, …
For many years I marketed myself via my looks. It is how I broke into entertainment. During this time I had a few relationships. I noticed that in those relationships, I was given a lot of freedom. Freedom to pose for Playboy’s celebrity cover/spread…twice, Maxim, etc. Freedom to post pictures of myself modeling, etc online that were very titillating. Funny enough, what I did that was titillating back then is …
Time to get rid of most my dresses and high heels! I live on a big ranch. There is no need for this stuff anymore. I have been purchasing practical clothes. Furry vests for autumn, snow boots for the cold winter months. Cargo shorts instead of LA short shorts and lots of hiking shoes and socks. Thankfully, due to selling Avon, I still slap some makeup on my eyes and …
The Story of Narcissus and Echo read the above story for a great lesson. Since making the decision to stop marketing myself in a “sexy” way and refocus my life, my eyes have been opened to many things. One, most of us on social media are insufferable narcissists. If it isn’t jamming our political opinions down each others throats, it’s our nonstop need for likes, followers and endless validation. Picture …
Naturally, as we get older we tend to change the way we dress. Most of us move on from wanting to look 22 and become more sophisticated. When you hit 35, something changes. LESS is more. A confidence floods over most of us and we don’t feel like we need to flash everything to be amazing. We already know we are. In fact, I get EMBARRASSED when I realize people …
My wedding is quickly coming up. I wont reveal when, but it is very soon. My face has been a real asshole! Try as I might, my cheeks KEEP breaking out. I am a picker, so I struggle with trying not to pop them. GOD, I LOVE to pop them! I had been using Anew Ultimate Skin Care for a while, not really trying anything else because I loved it. However, …
Until I deleted Facebook & Twitter from my phone, I didn’t realize how dependent I had become on them. Throughout the day, I find myself glancing at my cellphone. If it’s not a glance, then I have picked it up in an attempt to search for apps that are not there. I have cut my social media use by about 90%. When I do go onto my desktop and check, I get …
Yep, it has only been two days since I deleted Facebook and Twitter from my phone. Let me tell you what I have learned. I never realized JUST how addicted I was to my phone till I no longer had these two apps to access. Throughout each day, I’d brainlessly pick up my phone and LOOK for these apps. Each realization of what I was doing left me in awe …
Social Media used to be a very fun place. In the 90’s I signed up my AOL account and would role play Vampire: The Masquerade. I wish I was kidding, but I have always been a big nerd. Back in 2003, I won America’s Next Top Model. I started a Live Journal. I blogged to friends and fans as I traveled the world. Fast forward to mid and late 00’s. …
I have noticed a lot of blame going around for toxic relationships. I remember when it was my default for the two I had been in. I blamed them. It was the easiest thing to do. I mean, they were manipulative, snake oil salesmen, charming and most importantly, lying emotionally abusive/violent assholes! Then, my therapist asked me if they were “that bad”. I was shocked. Of course they were! …
Lucy In The Sky gets a bath…photo blog of pure…unadulterated….MISERY. Photos by: An Overjoyed Matthew Rhode cat wash
I wanted to share a few products that are my daily routine. I get a lot of compliments on my skin and figured I’d share some of my secrets. This oil, I find myself mixing into my foundation and using under my skin care. It’s U.F.O. Oil by Sunday Riley This smells like complete BUTTS. I mean it, I crinkle my nose when I put it on because it is …
Half of us will stupidly waltz around in the Sun with no skin protection. I do not “do” Sun anymore. While I have a deep appreciation of our Star and the life it brings this planet, I do not want it on my skin. Some people mistakenly believe in the power of their darker flesh to battle the damage of the sun. No, guys. That is not how it …
I LOVE masks. There are so many to choose from and I usually don’t have favorites. However, the Aztec Healing Clay Mask has GOT to be the best mask I have ever tried. For the price, you can’t beat it. It is amazing for acne and pulling all dirt and gunk from your pores. It is incredibly powerful, so I do not recommend using it unless you are about to …
Need a bad ass former Z-list celebrity that lives deep in the rocky mountains to personally pick out your skincare regimen and makeup? Well, here is your lucky day! Go to www.youravon.com/AdrianneCurry for all your Avon needs. Need me to match foundation to your skin, pick out eye shadow or suggest skin care? Simply hit the “contact me” button on my page and I will email you. I will personally …
So, you want to sell Avon? Why not do it with me? Let me be the first to tell you, there are women making hundreds of thousands, if not millions of dollars doing so. If you treat this as a real business and put some effort into it, you will be rewarded. You can do a little bit a day and make enough to pay off a bill or two, …
Home - Adrianne Curry
